WHY CAN’T YOU JUST LOVE ME BACK?!

I screamed those words… and then I woke up

WHY CANT YOU JUST LOVE ME BACK?

I’ll scream it from the rooftops

until the whole galaxy hears.

‘Til my tongue falls off,

and my eyes have no tears.

My heart is sick

and my soul is battered,

From all this obscurity

and all that is shattered.

A microscopic flicker of affection for me

is enough to light me up,

enough for my lungs to breathe.

I’ve become shameless with my confessions,

I wonder why you keep me around.

Is it because I offer so much,

or because I’m the most pitiful girl in town

They say “home is where the heart is”,

my safety has always been with you

From every heartfelt notion,

I gathered them as perfect clues.

And all those intimate moments

swim in my head around and around

How can you say that?

How is it that my heart misunderstands?

You say our discrepancies are a weakness,

that they’re far too loud.

I say that it’s beautiful and I mean it

I wear you like a badge, but why aren’t you proud?

A newfound friendship is what you’ve named it,

but denial is its middle name.

Or is it the killing of time

where every sacrifice fills me with shame?

You’ve confirmed my fears,

that love is never free.

It has bounds of expectation

but somethings gonna give in me.

My rage fights my pride,

it so badly wants to ask.

So it takes a gasp of hopeless breath and pleads

WHY CANT YOU JUST LOVE ME BACK?!

Thank you for reading my poetry, and taking a glimpse into my vulnerable mind and fragile heart.

Kind regards,

From My soul and I