Familiarity breeds contempt

You turned me into something you never wanted

You never know what you have ‘til it’s gone

So I’ll watch you wander down many dead end streets

After abandoning what you had with me

I’ll stick around to watch the tower shatter

I’ll happily be your consolation prize

As long as I have you, that’s all that will matter

It’s extremely sad isn’t it? The depths I will go

To assure my emotional safety so I don’t have to spend a minute alone

A minute to think, to drown in my turmoil

To accept my lonely fate that I’m destined to be deserted while you sit on your thrown

I’ll pick myself apart as I watch your new love interest

Her hairs straighter than mine, her eyes are like lightning

Is her skin softer? And her company more enjoyable?

Just the thought of these possibilities is extremely frightening

It’s ironic isn’t it? All that “love you had for me”?

How it dissipated into the air with no trace of it ever existing

I despise the idea that you could have the nerve to utter “I’m in love with you”

Just to wash it away once I became something you were used to

Familiarity breeds contempt so I’ll fade in the shadows

Because you take my kindness for weakness and I won’t take you pointing arrows

At my heart, at my lungs, at my brain, at my confidence

My curls turned to coil, my bright eyes faded dull

My soft skin felt harsher and my face ballooned up

Where you once saw beauty, now your eyes fixate on repulsion

Because familiarity breeds contempt

That’s a conclusion I’ve come to

You’ll do anything to keep me around

Except love me the way you vowed to

Thank you for reading my vulnerable words from my fragile heart

Kind regards,

My Soul and I